I have friends/Raymond

I realize i have friends. I never knew it before this day.

After that wedding things were rocky. they would be good. get bad be good get bad. I hadn't seen him since that day. And i was suppose to see him on that saturday. I was super excited cause he was gonna spend a weekend with me. Not at a wedding, but just us together. I called him while i was at SAT classes. He picked up at 10 but then just hung up. I found it odd. Blamed it on how he was just half asleep. I kept sending him texts saying. "Hey im by your house do you want me to pick you up so you dont have to find a ride?" I kept calling him and calling. and texting and leaving voice mails. but he wouldn't answer. its odd since the slightest noise always woke him up. It was 5 already in the afternoon still not a sign of him. It hurt me that he would once again sell me out. Especially when i had my hopes so high.


Its sad how i've failed to mention raymond till now. But he was a big part of my life since february. He always picked me up when i was on the floor crying, starving, hopeless, depressed. You name it raymond was there.

and once again he was there for me again. That night i was left w.o plans. And he dropped all of his to come be with me. I even remember he was at sunset with his friends and he just left. Ashley had plans but out of no where instead came to be with me at my house. Adis even came that faggot lol ! At 10 caro came too after work. I went from feeling alone and helpless to realizing hey. Maybe i do have other friends. Maybe krewd isn't the most important thing. Maybe just maybe i can do it this time. We got ice cream at cold stone. How i loved coldstone. Raymond held my hand in the car. And it felt great. Great to know i was loved.