Biggest mistake of my life

I got back with him. In 5 days. I think it has to be a record for stupidity.

I start missing him

Wow all i need is one fucking call to ruin everything i had achieved in 12 days. i was at the beach with my family. How i love them i must say. And i just couldn't shake the urge but to text him. I told him i missed him and couldn't stop thinking of him. and to my suprise. He was giving me a hard time. Like I had done something wrong. me! I wasnt the one who had cheated i wasn't the one who disapeered for 2 weeks. Yet i was the one crying for him to take me back. I didn't sleep that day. It was the day before school started again from spring break. He told me he liked some girl. And if i say it didn't rip my heart out of my chest, pinned it up against the wall with thumb tacks, and stabbed it with a steak knife. Id be lying. Yet i felt hopeful i knew i could get him back

It rings

lalalalaa suds in the shower. Jamming to my music from my computer in my room to my bathroom like it was all good. Nobodys home its spring break. things with ziggy are going great im sure you can say. (He really helps me feel hopeful. dont know why; distance is always an issue though) I hear my house phone ringing but i continue in the shower. Lalalaala suds suds suds =) Then the suds are off and i turn the water off only to hear my STUPID caller ID "BABY" Wtf?! i think to my self. Wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf. (Not even wtf a million times could some up how many wtfs crossed through my mind at that point) i was in shock that i had almost made it 14 days without talking to him and he comes to ruin it for me. I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT HIM EVEN LET HIM CROSS MY MIND NOT EVEN ONCE SINCE THE 24! AND HE COMES AND RUINS MY COUNTDOWN!!!!! But no wait its Mabelle ofcourse. So i pick up.
"Hello?!"
"Why didn't you pick up my other calls?"
"i was showering."

it honestly doesn't suprise me. that after 12 days of not hearing from this idiot the first thing he responds with is a question. Oh how i hated those questions. It was mostly the reason we ever faught.

He asked me how i was doing and i told him great. even though it felt like a lie. I could tell he was being shady at the minimal imput of his life he was putting. I told him i was talking to ziggy. But couldn't help but tell him the truth that we kissed. Idk why i was always so afraid of him. We left it at that nothing more nothing less just a bye.